“`Few years Ago I asked Nature, ”What is your Nature?”
After few months:
“I have not traveled yet to my nature, but you wait Rose, I will go and see; then you come.”
Nature entered the beautiful unique ocean, and disappeared beyond the Wonderful color…
Then: something happened. Like somebody came and touched my Head, I felt; Light-Clear Light with a Beautiful AROMA
This is what Nature means and Her mystery means.
It says many things without saying anything.
Today, my faculty that observes life has been brought into use after realizing the significance of birth of the body, shape, colour, and hue of the visible material, tempting objects of the world. This new angle of vision that I have brought into use transfigures this vast expansion of the universe under a new name: Rose Marie.
Rose: (Gulaab) special Light-Knowledge-Wisdom which have a special ORA Again
Mariee: Beloved and Bitterness
Rosemarie in hindi: Gulmehndi. The name Rosemarie derives from the Latin ROS meaning “dew” and MARINUS meaning “sea” – “sea dew.”
Rose Mariee means: natural- healingThe beauty of this special Light is being supported by the whole universe. Therefore, for the journey of every individual the beauty of this universe is quite helpful and cooperative. To enjoy and apprehend the special Healing of this beauty, silence is the best medium. Silence means absorption in the depth of one’s being.
What is dedication?
Our I’ness (ego)
Then what is our I’ness?
A promissory note of our finite and constrained being as well as our narrow, limited mode of thought.
This I’ness makes our life realize its incompletion, dons our existence into the gar of extreme loneliness, and throws it into the imprisonment of the tough and chaotic strife of the world. How cruelly this dark and dreadful perceptions and realizations sequential in the invaluable verbal vestures, bestowed upon them the name of Rose Mariee, and then expressed its gratitude to the universe.
What was I?
A thought—a blind thought which did not wear the eyes of reflectiveness.
What am I, Today?
As light as the air—vast emptiness!
Emptiness means nothing to know and nothing to do. I am as all others are, there is stir and bustle in this vacuity, which means that if I am hungry—I eat, if I am sleepy—I sleep, if I feel inclined to laugh—I resort to laughing, if I am weeping—I shed tears. Even formerly, things went on but then they were couched in I’ness. Nevertheless, today there is the sense of is’ness (omnipresence) behind these activities.
From this is’ness the individual’s true life begins. This true life begins with the perception of the uniformity of the universe and the homogeneity in the world. This stage is the individual’s last journey before is’ness begins its journey into the energy. The journey of the energy can also be referred to as the journey of the University. This unique journey which begins with silence introduces the individual to the mysteries and secrets of time and space where the individual becomes aware of its true self which is beyond both time and space. My books contain only a detailed account of these feelings and realizations of the spiritual wayfarer.
When the individual turns to glance at the world, they enter a new dimension.
Then time teaches them that the world of the unconscious mind is merely a dream.
While the dream of a wakeful mind is the world.
Then Space shows them that the meditation of an unconscious mind is sleeping,
While the sleep of the wakeful mind is meditation.
In other words, dream and the world, sleep and meditation depend only on the awareness of the individual itself. How my journey of so many years which was form me to myself took my body, mind, intellect, and awareness in harmonious cooperation. Watched and enjoyed new golden dimension and how I felt surcharged with excessive ecstatic delight in the state of bliss, kept flying in the highest Sky.
It was because:
• In the lap of every moments lay the awareness of timelessness.
• In every action lay the consciousness of no action.
• Every particle emitted the aroma of emotive homogeneity.
• Every happening gave a hint of the destination lying ahead.
• Every step forward was destination which kept telling that the world is the path and humans only a wayfarer.
Because every goodness made me conscious of my vice and every vice directed me towards goodness. Every part of the universe is lent a special zest by human’s own reflectiveness and life is rendered beautiful by human’s thoughtlessness.
Because the thoughtlessness is a beautiful stage of emptiness, which is infinite life space and endless like time. Then whatever be the secret of life as a whole, that experience makes the individual complete, perfect, and liberated. It is special taste of light enables us to cross the bounds of Time and Space.
“`Nature or Temperament—the most important part of Life, the most essential part of Life, is to make life explicit. The importance of Life is due to this temperament.
The first link – in my Temperament was my Stubbornness
This stubbornness was neither harmful to anybody nor useful, but it stood by me in good stead, even in my wrong steps.
I have always done what I liked. Even in the conjunction of some rare moments, I have never followed the desires of others. For me, the most important thing is the guidance of my ‘why’ and how I act upon it. I have a Beautiful aspect of my temperament, which keeps me miles away from partiality.
I was, at one time, well impressed with the lifestyle, nature, or temperament of a speaker and not at the relationship with that person. I could never become a part of anybody’s hauteur, envy, selfishness, and foolishness. At that time, I was not aware of my ‘why’, probably because I was lost in a thick fog. Perhaps the activities of my mind were an indication of this ‘why’ in me. In that part of my life, that has now passed, my ‘why’ applied to itself the label of stubbornness.
For me today, the most influential person was my revered father. But during his last moments I did not obey him. My father was a man of ‘Satu-gunas,’ a man of action, a man practicing asceticism. His existence carried so much importance for me, which I can’t explain. However, his virtues were ill balanced. In order to acquire his virtues, I needed the watchman-ship of knowledge. I lacked the present moments; therefore, I could not understand him. But my ‘why’ understood his virtues. So his hesitancy, reserve, first preference for others, even though they might be wrong—always incurred my disapproval. This was the most critical moment of his Satvik journey of Life that he could not call even a bad person bad. This state of his mind suggested to me some elements of servitude, settled deep at the depth of his being. His servitude, even though Satvik, became for me only Freedom and still more Freedom. To reject my father, was for me, the rejection of the world. His death was the Death of a daughter—the Death of a daughter’s world! His cancer became for me the consciousness of seeing a bigger world!
But his pilgrimage of Life, which involved recognizing all relationships, left me a non-pilgrim; it became a milestone for me in my spiritual quest to know myself. For my ‘why’ having watched his life, stuck this poster to the four-walls of my life—that:
Relationships should not be taken in the sense of so many restraints, but as opportunities for mutual cooperation.
So breaking these restraints awards me the badge of stubbornness.
The second link – Frankness or Candour
Whatever you like, you like; whatever you don’t like, you don’t
Whatever you love, is Love; whatever you hate, is Hate
In short, whatever is in your mind, should be on your lips; there should be no concealment, no formality, or artificiality. This frankness proves both useful and harmful, encouraging and elevating, as well as depressing and degrading. Whatever loss I sustain is in the social and worldly spheres. I cannot succeed in the class which consists of businesspersons or materialists. However, what I call unsuccessful is taken by my ‘why’ in the sense of successfulness. Still my body and mind fall victim to depression and despair, and my ‘why’, the queen, raises its eyebrows mischievously at the instigation of ‘why’ itself.
As for gain, there is plenty of gain. All becomes acquaint with my temperament. For many people, I am rude, outspoken, rough of expression, and foolish, but on the mental plain, those who have unique distinctions become my friends. My candour acts as a sieve, leading to the purification of my life. But this ‘why’ honours this plain-speaking of mine with the title of ‘honesty’, and perhaps by exhorting me in this way, wants to transport me to the state of perfection.
The third link – Mutability
In every sphere, in every direction, the demand for novelty was so great that most Beautiful aspects of Life fell into abeyance. However, I never felt their want nor showed any regret, but ever remained conscious about them.
I could not say what I wanted but this want did not sit still in me.
Today, I know what that want or longing is. I was worried to think of my inner imperfection or deficiency, my inner hollowness stung me. This imperfection and hollowness always wanted some newness or novelty in my life. To make room for the new, the old one had to be said adieu. So this change went on at full speed in every field of my life. As soon as a thing changed, my thoughts underwent a change, and at once, I underwent a change. Might it be taken for my promise.
Whatever I had promised to do, whether to myself or to others, I could never accomplish, simply went back on my word. Then how could anybody trust me, and my friendship?
It was my ‘why’ that persuaded me to share all my infirmities with others, before they shared theirs with me.
Then nearly ninety percent of my problems were solved. This habit of undergoing change after change converted my life into a cataract. That Life which was conscious of the conglomeration of all thoughts, actions, virtues, vices, and other mental states, kept ever flowing and followed its own moods and caprices.
For—I saw the promise-keeping persons, who, for the fulfillment of our ordinary promise, wasted the major parts of their life, but what did they get in return?—Only bravo!
I saw no changing persons who stuck to their rites and rituals. Their Life ultimately ended and their bodies were cremated, but those rites and rituals survived and even strutted about. Why did they do all this? Only to win the title of ‘goodness’! I also saw the religious fanatics, who ever endeavoured to prove ‘persistence-incarnates’ but could not raise in their lives a single fragrant flower: no Beautiful flower grew in them. They were swayed by a trivial consolation, that:
They were religious minded!
In short, my ‘why’ by vitalizing all aspects of virtue and vice, right and wrong, pushed on the flow of Life by the idea that they all constituted the utility of life and nothing else. That whatever was inane, only that was perfect. All else, these virtues and vices, rights and wrongs, and world’s religions—were based on our life; Life was based on thirst, thirst on desires. They did not have their own ‘existence’; their ‘existence’ depended on desires and wishes. Keep this view, O Rose:
One person can learn nothing from virtues while another can get the quintessence of truth even from vices.
The fourth link – Positive thinking, Positive tendency
From my early life, I saw and realized that I did not take any situation, event, or temperament in the negative sense. I remained positive in whatever befell me. If there was anything negative in my environment, I took it in the positive sense, with the desire to live a positive life.
If my mother beat me, I would see if I could beat my children. I peeped into its depth, and found the answer: I would never do it.
Envy and jealously—all around—nearly suffocated me. So how could I do the same to others?
If I ever showed some negligence or some other drawback in my conduct, I would make it a lesson for myself.
If some other person committed a fault, I would learn from their mistakes. Why and how was this taking place? I do not know, but it was actually happening. I never proved successful even in the promises made to myself. For example:
At night before going to bed, I promised to rise early the next morning and be the first to do religious recital. As the morning came, I got up from the smell of sweet, fragrant tea. After having the morning tea, if someone suggested that we should go out for a walk, I would readily agree. On my return, I was attracted by play and games. Now again came the time to sleep, and then, a mysterious, secretive smile would come over my lips and put me to sleep, by covering me with the pall of carelessness! No argument, it all happened as a matter of fact.
Some classmate of mine would scold, abuse, or laugh at me and then no longer remaining on speaking terms with me.
A few days later, she would express a desire to again be on speaking terms with me. If I came to know of her desire, I would not disclose to her that I knew her mind, but under some excuse, I would go to her, inquire of her well being, and make peace with her again. Thus, I fulfilled her desire. Why?
Perhaps I could not bear to see anybody in the state of mental confusion of suffocation or helplessness.
Perhaps my own helplessness and mental suffocation enabled me to realize the confusion of others.
Perhaps it was a deep, positive mental state.
Such trifling things, pertaining to my school and home atmosphere, would direct the flow of my life in new directions. My mode of thought sought after truth, not only from the right and true things, but also out of the wrong and untrue things; it searched for virtues, not only in the virtuous, but also in the vicious temperaments as well. It was not my mode of thinking, but the mode of thinking of some other being deeply embedded within me. Perhaps this very reflectiveness came to a halt at the sight of:
Wading through water
The stream of reasoning
Decaying human physiques
This halt or pause becomes a beautiful encampment, then ‘why’ comes again and sticks a label saying:
“If you wish to see Beauty
Know your own ‘self’
Then all you need are the brakes, not speed
Not a car, but spiritual thirst”
If I peep within, I find in my life, a long list of desires
Are desires themselves Life?
Is life a conglomeration of desires?
Sometimes a trifling desire has to cover a long distance of years, to get fulfillment or a draught of satisfaction. When I think back to my desires, they were only at the mental level. They had no physical or social content. I had absolutely no desire for hearth and home, good clothes, wealth and affluence, jewelery and ornaments; I remained confined to a caravan of feelings and sentiments.
Perhaps my present start of life began at the mental level. Material goods did satisfy my physical needs, but my objects of attraction remained beauty, my own ‘self’, truth, and happiness.
I remember those moments of my wedding: People: “Bare, unadorned ears do not look nice, put on your ornaments”
People: “Apply some light lipstick to your lips”
Rose: “Why? Why should I do that?”
People: “Your lips will look beautiful then.”
Rose: “Then apply lipsticks to your own self, please.”
People: “Wear an embroidered suit.”
People: “It is a wedding, you will look more beautiful in it.”
Rose: “Is it my wedding or the suit’s wedding?”
What was I doing? What was I saying? Even I was not conscious of it. Perhaps my search was at some other level. This frankness saved me from narrow-minded and materialistic people. Whatever took place at the physical level and the social level, happened because of some inclination of mine. However, the intensity of my demands was soon going to take me to some other direction. I wished, for example:
All should form one family
All should be happy
All should enjoy freedom
All should be free from worries, anxieties, helplessness and despair.
It was possible only if, I was prepared to face depression in the attempt.
My wish expressed for others’ welfare, was in fact my wish for my own well being.
My desire to Love all was an expression of self-Love.
My desire for universal Freedom was, in fact, an expression of my own servitude of some kind.
My longing for general happiness was, in fact, pain of my own helplessness and despair.
These desires of mine brought the advent of spring—they ultimately discovered freedom, love, and happiness.
You see this expansion of my life was possible only on the axle of my desires. The destination of Life depends on the mood of the wayfarer, on the fact of which path is adopted. Perhaps the desire to remove imperfections becomes the starting point of leading a righteous and immaculate Life. An account of the fulfillment of this desire cannot be given in the language of emotions and passions.
This desire, at first, brought me failure at the external plane. Though I ask, did it really bring me failure? This failure, in fact, looks like success; for this failure is a degree of understanding Life.
My ‘why’ now opens some other pages, of my desires and wishes.
How can I become infinite and boundless in the world, when the world itself is controlled by limits?
How can I spread my wings of oneness with others, when they are all confined to the cages of their egos, or narrow selves?
How will anyone understand my feeling of human love, when everyone is engaged in meeting the demands of their selfish narrow self?
In this way, the sense of failure is depressing. However, today the weather has changed, as has my mode of thought, and profundity has come into my being.
If we cannot make the world a single house, at least we can realize our oneness with all.
For if another person’s house is not ‘mine’, I, on my part, can feel my oneness with them.
If all others are confined to the narrow cages of ‘yours’ and ‘ours’, at least I am not one of them. Then for me, they all become ‘mine’.
These considerations remove my tremor of imperfection. The feelings I cherish about others contain feelings regarding myself, and they bring me back from others to myself again. Even in this good feeling there is servitude—a limit, a remoteness, for ‘why’ is saying:
“Goodness is also a limit and by renouncing it one can flow in the easy flux of Life.”
“`I remember my first contact with TREES. Everything seemed to become Amazingly Wonderful. I felt that TREES looked at me and want to talked with me about some Secrets. I realized that something stood behind all these secrets and behind all Nature. There is Law, Discipline and Order which determine Relations.It seems possible to explain everything, to know everything, to understand exactly why everything is WHAT IT IS. All our explanations are Nothing but descriptions of processes that remain a MYSTERY…
“` One day: in the early morning I walked to the Track as the Sun infused with the Horizon with PINKS and REDS. In that BEAUTY my being stood like a Statue and My Heart spoke, ‘WOW’. I felt a Stillness- ‘ SILENCE’, Deep Peaceful Atmosphere around me. But I did not know who I became. I just felt deep LOVE my in Being.
Then I allowed myself to be lost in CREATION’s Love, unconditionally. I wondered at The Very Life’s Mystery. I gave myself to LOVE itself. I walked the Brave fully Painful PATH of CREATION’s LOVE with Ecstasy and Moist being.
Then I realized that GOD comes to us through Mystery. To each of Us GOD comes in our own WAY, according to our NATURE and HABITS. Again I realized that NATURE is my PATH and the very NATURE ‘CREATION’ is my GURU, because- For Me, GOD is Visible in NATURE.
“`O beings, Before reading these words please understand that i have not been educated in any intinstitution or organized spiritual retreat.My life journey is my knowledge of Science and Dharma.The being Who knows the principles of life and recognizes the wisdom.That particular being will never say that he/she does not believe in such. If i say today i do not believe in science than i would have to question my-self , ” Have i become Einstein”? but on the otherhand, if Einstein says, ” I do not believe in science”, then being should believe because he is learned being. If Krishna was present at this moment and says,” There is no god” , then the human being would have to pay attention. Do we know difference between trust and belief ?
O beings, I only write from the core of my being, but never about my sivlings or any other being in my life. So if my experince of my journey gives me the knowledge to say there is God then there is God; but if my experinces shows me the science is my guru then i will have to acknowledge the same. If one should queston why a human being has two eyes and one mouth, why not two mouth, “Is there explanation for this question?” If we don’t acknowledge experince of life, then there is some paralytic energy in us. Total energy is consistant of partial and full theory, but matter is partialy theory. So let us not trust anything or anyone, then should be not trust our own being? Then, why would not i trust every parts of living, when…..
= My illiteracy made me literate
=My non-charactor charaterised my being
=My foolness give a birth to my inner child
=My love made my life the guru of my-self
=And the whole creation became my God Whether we believe or not that we are from energy,not for energy, because if illiteracy can teach literacy then it can only be explained as Energy.
Then this energy can not be theorized as i expierenced it. I hope my love for humanity will take you towards the journey of finding peace.
“`So what if technology is at the peak in this century, but have we ever understood what technology is?Is it technology vast then the human being? If one asks the intellectuals if they believe in God ; the reply will be that they trust science. With my experience, i have learnt that visiting Temple—Churches—Mosques–one does not the become Jesus–Krishna–or Nanak. or trusting only science have become einstein–or–Darwin. Why? Because we trust in theory but we don’t experience it. What is science? Science is best knowledge to educate the matter,with what we can learn about life.Science can explain the being thru object. then what is religion? Nothing but knowledge of energy and the matter is subject. Subject or object are both energy. I remember when i was soul searching. This search took me towards death.I attened every funeral for three month.The three months educated me every string of death.Now i can not prove this theory thru atoms, but feeling one’s energy i can smell death. I can feel differents between life energy and death’s energy, but can not theorize it.As long as we theirize formulas that only becomes matter.As electron can be proven as matter, but energy can be only felt.
What is telephone and what is telepathy? Telephone is an object. Object can be made useful by everyone. because telephone is compilation of matter. Telepathy is subject.Subject is within and only can be felt be the being.To know the subject one has to become the subject. Science is my guru; because science has shown me what human being is capable of.Althuogh science was my guru but when i gaze at the same from the core of my being the question arises can i measure the same. Because that point of circumference,where the point becomes finite thru infinite can not be measured.The experience that can not be measured or explained can only be lived or experienced. because we are from energy not for energy. so religion and science are because of us and for us, because beings are product of energy and religion and science were given the shape thru human beings.
I am not educated by any institution.But i know the source of my being and the future of my being. Experiencing birth and death can not be proven in a tube in a lab or can be proved in any place of organized religion.So the knowledge of journey of human beings is the science and religion.
“`I feel that I do not know anything about everything. There is mystery all around me. I feel a profound sense of ignorance. I wonder about life and death, about the life of the body, about everything that I have thought naively and arrogantly that I know. I realize that all life, and all objects and processes in life, are full of mystery. I do not really know anything
I see through Water-changing color with light…
The universe is one infinite perfect crystal, totally transparent, and absolutely clear. The reality of the world is a solid transparency, a compact emptiness so clear it feels like the total absence of any sensation. It is the virgin reality, before mind arises, before thought knows, before memory is born…
“`The first moment, I renounce myself, then, I feel this tremendous energy pushing against my being from the inside. My heart starts to open, like a heavy door opening slowly under a great pressure. At some point the door is flung open, and the pure love evoked and this sweet taste melts my intellectual and emotional personality and I find myself in the presence of LOVE
“`I am the absolute mystery, a vastness that has manifested itself within itself as a transparent sphere of conscious presence, whose center is a radiant point of light. The felt experience is lightness and intimacy, preciousness and exquisiteness, and total personal vulnerability.