For example “I” was born in Sikh religion, so I had to go to Gurdwara but I dreamt of Krishna though I do not know who Krishna was.
At the physical level “I” am sikh but at mental level “I” am hindu. At night I would hear music. After 20 years I came to know that it was verses of Quran, means at deep mental level “I” was muslim.
Now the question is that if in this physical world we call this “I” as Sikh but is that the reality?
“I” means that in this “I” the whole universe exist. With the birth of the baby, the word family comes into existence. Country or society come into existence rarely and religion comes into existence very rarely in centuries. Why? Because the journey of “I” is physical, it is the journey of an object.
Not only in this world but in whole universe the religion is one and the first word of it is “I.” The journey starts with “I” and ends with “I.”
Many people die in their childhood. The body can age to 90 but “I” always stays in childhood. If 52% reach their youth, then old age has been rare. Why? Because our speed is slow, by then, time has come to change the body.
Then what should be done? We should live the character of “I.” Means we should make “I” as subject. We should not let any object become subject.
What is this “I”?
The answer to this question changes at every level, it changes with every color and shape. Why?
“I” is like water – see through. Whatever color we put into water, it becomes that color. But what is the color of water? What is the color, and shape of air? What is the color of space and temperature?
Body, society, family, country, these are mirrors through which we see and recognize “I”.
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What does family say? What are the rules and regulations of the country? What is religion? Why is there religion? What is the true definition of religion? We have to analyze all these points on the basis of our own deep existence and always consider “I” as a subject.
Everything in this world is beautiful. Everything has value, has rule and discipline. We have to recognize this. Today, we have to look at family and religion through the eye of “I”. If there was no “I” then? With “I” family and religion are identified. Then why not, we first try to understand “I”, and what are its virtue.
Virtues that awakens within “I” are the ones we recognize, which means we travel with the virtues and vice in motions.
Life’s motion is due to this virtues and vices only. Love, service, care, for family, is the form of “I”. Whatever we see in the family like love, care, peace, sorrow, is because it is already within us. Family awakens our internal potential, giving us the ability to walk.
When we go in society, then we learn what is yours and mine, rituals and economic differences.
Family strengthens the roots then society like leafs and branches of the tree brings happiness due to which our potential become deeper as well as new ones spout.
“Country” takes our potential ahead from which flowers of deep feelings blooms upon our happiness. It means, “I” potential individual identity starts to grow.
If these three stages (family, society and country) we stand in the physical world, where we developed relationships with physical appearance, shape and size. These potential, which are in motion within “I”, becomes powerful with the supported by these three stages. Why did “I” became powerful? Because it had power, its strength has motion, and became powerful with the three stages, or in other worlds the power
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Since every individual is unique and distinct in himself or herself then whatever they do will inevitably carry the mark of his or her uniqueness. They will reveal their uniqueness in a way as to astonish everyone. It happens when the individual becomes fully aware of himself or herself, and the art that reveals this awareness creates the uniqueness. As for the unique distinction of the books, whatever I read or heard since my childhood contained the mention of the attainment of the destination and of the life beyond omnipresent. It contained no account of the conflict between the mind and the intellect in the journey of spirituality. Therefore, these books refer to the journey and not to the attainment of the destination.
Osho remarked that humans ought to be happy and in comfort so that life could become a celebration. Osho put forth science and Religion tinged in the same hue. He expressed his own views as well as presented the views of Krishna, Buddha, and Jesus in a new light for the rejuvenation of the individual.
I for the sake of my comfort and happiness began to examine my own life. For me my own life is as the Vedas and other Holy Scripts and my own experiences for me are veritable milestones. Whenever my experience referred me back to the Holy Scripts, then I used the Holy Scripts as an illustration. My books are purely scientific because life is the greatest scientific style. Religion and science are a part of life, one provides life with peace and tranquility from within, and the other makes life happy and comfortable, externally. My book relates my physical, mental, intellectual, and spiritual journey.
Just as Silvia brown has mainly dwelt on the force of mind, my books relate to the state of the world, of nature, and the infinite power of the universe.
Dr. Wayne W. Dyer said that man could make his life beautiful with meditation, and references from the Vedas and other scriptures, he influenced his readers to raise and uplift their lives. My books begin with silence, self-dedication which is within the capacity of everyone; for knowledge, intellectual is essential.
Deepak Chopra has repeated Hindu religion and I have pointed out the myriad hues of life which is within the capacity of every individual. If a meagerly educated woman like me can live her life comfortable and happily, then so can everyone else. When my experiences remind me of the Buddha, Einstein, Hitler, Krishna, Newton, Jesus, and Mohammed then their mention becomes for me my religion and the universe became for me my temple.
The book entitled Secret made mention of the law of attraction. In my books, I mention appertains life as a whole from a stone to the individual, from the world to the universe, from matter to nature. There is need for a mighty weapon to understand this collective life, and that mighty weapon is silence which is the human’s habitual characteristic. Silence makes human transcend in time and enables them to travel all over the universe because silence is the loftiest knowledge, it fosters the spirit of devotion to the universe and love for life.
“`I love those moments when i realized that i am an idiot. these moments are very beautiful and powerful and very deep painful, because this idiotic is very clean–clearer than any knowledge. this idiotic is healthy, because those moments are silent only and silence is very wonderful state; then I realized again that I am Silence only.
Then I said to myself,
” Rose, let the Rose die completely dear; she is still alive, let her die, mallah ( Dearest ).
Now that Rose is on death-bed. There is no pain, because Rose feels that she is birthing. This birth brings everything in my being, and…
My being is growing vast like sky but very aliveness…
Emptiness but very energy…
Nothingness but very healthy…
Alonelyness but very blissful…
Freeness but very rejoicefully.
O, My Peaceful Silence,
I love you. I love every little Moment. I love your Silent Being, and your musical Waves, and the sound of your Waves. I can’t stop thinking about your gentle touch. I never thought that Nature give me you as a Gift but now you’re my Life.You are the one I’ve always wished for. I Love every moment I spend in you. Now, I have found you I will never let you go. I love you so much, O, My lovely Silence!
you have changed my life completely. You’re the one who makes me Beautiful and Strong. You’re my Life- O, My Wonderful Silence!
You’re the only one that I want – O, My Dear Silence!
I wish I didn’t have to miss you. I even miss you when I am sleeping.
Hopefully, soon We live together forever!!!
Today, my faculty that observes life has been brought into use after realizing the significance of birth of the body, shape, colour, and hue of the visible material, tempting objects of the world. This new angle of vision that I have brought into use transfigures this vast expansion of the universe under a new name: Rose Marie.
Rose: (Gulaab) special Light-Knowledge-Wisdom which have a special ORA Again
Mariee: Beloved and Bitterness
Rosemarie in hindi: Gulmehndi. The name Rosemarie derives from the Latin ROS meaning “dew” and MARINUS meaning “sea” – “sea dew.”
Rose Mariee means: natural- healingThe beauty of this special Light is being supported by the whole universe. Therefore, for the journey of every individual the beauty of this universe is quite helpful and cooperative. To enjoy and apprehend the special Healing of this beauty, silence is the best medium. Silence means absorption in the depth of one’s being.
What is dedication?
Our I’ness (ego)
Then what is our I’ness?
A promissory note of our finite and constrained being as well as our narrow, limited mode of thought.
This I’ness makes our life realize its incompletion, dons our existence into the gar of extreme loneliness, and throws it into the imprisonment of the tough and chaotic strife of the world. How cruelly this dark and dreadful perceptions and realizations sequential in the invaluable verbal vestures, bestowed upon them the name of Rose Mariee, and then expressed its gratitude to the universe.
What was I?
A thought—a blind thought which did not wear the eyes of reflectiveness.
What am I, Today?
As light as the air—vast emptiness!
Emptiness means nothing to know and nothing to do. I am as all others are, there is stir and bustle in this vacuity, which means that if I am hungry—I eat, if I am sleepy—I sleep, if I feel inclined to laugh—I resort to laughing, if I am weeping—I shed tears. Even formerly, things went on but then they were couched in I’ness. Nevertheless, today there is the sense of is’ness (omnipresence) behind these activities.
From this is’ness the individual’s true life begins. This true life begins with the perception of the uniformity of the universe and the homogeneity in the world. This stage is the individual’s last journey before is’ness begins its journey into the energy. The journey of the energy can also be referred to as the journey of the University. This unique journey which begins with silence introduces the individual to the mysteries and secrets of time and space where the individual becomes aware of its true self which is beyond both time and space. My books contain only a detailed account of these feelings and realizations of the spiritual wayfarer.
When the individual turns to glance at the world, they enter a new dimension.
Then time teaches them that the world of the unconscious mind is merely a dream.
While the dream of a wakeful mind is the world.
Then Space shows them that the meditation of an unconscious mind is sleeping,
While the sleep of the wakeful mind is meditation.
In other words, dream and the world, sleep and meditation depend only on the awareness of the individual itself. How my journey of so many years which was form me to myself took my body, mind, intellect, and awareness in harmonious cooperation. Watched and enjoyed new golden dimension and how I felt surcharged with excessive ecstatic delight in the state of bliss, kept flying in the highest Sky.
It was because:
• In the lap of every moments lay the awareness of timelessness.
• In every action lay the consciousness of no action.
• Every particle emitted the aroma of emotive homogeneity.
• Every happening gave a hint of the destination lying ahead.
• Every step forward was destination which kept telling that the world is the path and humans only a wayfarer.
Because every goodness made me conscious of my vice and every vice directed me towards goodness. Every part of the universe is lent a special zest by human’s own reflectiveness and life is rendered beautiful by human’s thoughtlessness.
Because the thoughtlessness is a beautiful stage of emptiness, which is infinite life space and endless like time. Then whatever be the secret of life as a whole, that experience makes the individual complete, perfect, and liberated. It is special taste of light enables us to cross the bounds of Time and Space.
. Silence —- which is my deliverance.
. Nature — which is my guide or Preceptor
. World —- which is my path.
. Individual — which is my feeling and perception.
. Brahma — which is my destination.
All these today prompted me to write a line on my realization of life and I did it.
When the pen of love writes on the page of knowledge, then life is not life but an art, a realization.
= Life is truly lived only, when life loses the consciousness that it is life.
= The true king is he who rules himself.
= To drown oneself in the depth of one’s being is synonymous with swimming. Our existence is a sacred book.
“`Nature or Temperament—the most important part of Life, the most essential part of Life, is to make life explicit. The importance of Life is due to this temperament.
The first link – in my Temperament was my Stubbornness
This stubbornness was neither harmful to anybody nor useful, but it stood by me in good stead, even in my wrong steps.
I have always done what I liked. Even in the conjunction of some rare moments, I have never followed the desires of others. For me, the most important thing is the guidance of my ‘why’ and how I act upon it. I have a Beautiful aspect of my temperament, which keeps me miles away from partiality.
I was, at one time, well impressed with the lifestyle, nature, or temperament of a speaker and not at the relationship with that person. I could never become a part of anybody’s hauteur, envy, selfishness, and foolishness. At that time, I was not aware of my ‘why’, probably because I was lost in a thick fog. Perhaps the activities of my mind were an indication of this ‘why’ in me. In that part of my life, that has now passed, my ‘why’ applied to itself the label of stubbornness.
For me today, the most influential person was my revered father. But during his last moments I did not obey him. My father was a man of ‘Satu-gunas,’ a man of action, a man practicing asceticism. His existence carried so much importance for me, which I can’t explain. However, his virtues were ill balanced. In order to acquire his virtues, I needed the watchman-ship of knowledge. I lacked the present moments; therefore, I could not understand him. But my ‘why’ understood his virtues. So his hesitancy, reserve, first preference for others, even though they might be wrong—always incurred my disapproval. This was the most critical moment of his Satvik journey of Life that he could not call even a bad person bad. This state of his mind suggested to me some elements of servitude, settled deep at the depth of his being. His servitude, even though Satvik, became for me only Freedom and still more Freedom. To reject my father, was for me, the rejection of the world. His death was the Death of a daughter—the Death of a daughter’s world! His cancer became for me the consciousness of seeing a bigger world!
But his pilgrimage of Life, which involved recognizing all relationships, left me a non-pilgrim; it became a milestone for me in my spiritual quest to know myself. For my ‘why’ having watched his life, stuck this poster to the four-walls of my life—that:
Relationships should not be taken in the sense of so many restraints, but as opportunities for mutual cooperation.
So breaking these restraints awards me the badge of stubbornness.
The second link – Frankness or Candour
Whatever you like, you like; whatever you don’t like, you don’t
Whatever you love, is Love; whatever you hate, is Hate
In short, whatever is in your mind, should be on your lips; there should be no concealment, no formality, or artificiality. This frankness proves both useful and harmful, encouraging and elevating, as well as depressing and degrading. Whatever loss I sustain is in the social and worldly spheres. I cannot succeed in the class which consists of businesspersons or materialists. However, what I call unsuccessful is taken by my ‘why’ in the sense of successfulness. Still my body and mind fall victim to depression and despair, and my ‘why’, the queen, raises its eyebrows mischievously at the instigation of ‘why’ itself.
As for gain, there is plenty of gain. All becomes acquaint with my temperament. For many people, I am rude, outspoken, rough of expression, and foolish, but on the mental plain, those who have unique distinctions become my friends. My candour acts as a sieve, leading to the purification of my life. But this ‘why’ honours this plain-speaking of mine with the title of ‘honesty’, and perhaps by exhorting me in this way, wants to transport me to the state of perfection.
The third link – Mutability
In every sphere, in every direction, the demand for novelty was so great that most Beautiful aspects of Life fell into abeyance. However, I never felt their want nor showed any regret, but ever remained conscious about them.
I could not say what I wanted but this want did not sit still in me.
Today, I know what that want or longing is. I was worried to think of my inner imperfection or deficiency, my inner hollowness stung me. This imperfection and hollowness always wanted some newness or novelty in my life. To make room for the new, the old one had to be said adieu. So this change went on at full speed in every field of my life. As soon as a thing changed, my thoughts underwent a change, and at once, I underwent a change. Might it be taken for my promise.
Whatever I had promised to do, whether to myself or to others, I could never accomplish, simply went back on my word. Then how could anybody trust me, and my friendship?
It was my ‘why’ that persuaded me to share all my infirmities with others, before they shared theirs with me.
Then nearly ninety percent of my problems were solved. This habit of undergoing change after change converted my life into a cataract. That Life which was conscious of the conglomeration of all thoughts, actions, virtues, vices, and other mental states, kept ever flowing and followed its own moods and caprices.
For—I saw the promise-keeping persons, who, for the fulfillment of our ordinary promise, wasted the major parts of their life, but what did they get in return?—Only bravo!
I saw no changing persons who stuck to their rites and rituals. Their Life ultimately ended and their bodies were cremated, but those rites and rituals survived and even strutted about. Why did they do all this? Only to win the title of ‘goodness’! I also saw the religious fanatics, who ever endeavoured to prove ‘persistence-incarnates’ but could not raise in their lives a single fragrant flower: no Beautiful flower grew in them. They were swayed by a trivial consolation, that:
They were religious minded!
In short, my ‘why’ by vitalizing all aspects of virtue and vice, right and wrong, pushed on the flow of Life by the idea that they all constituted the utility of life and nothing else. That whatever was inane, only that was perfect. All else, these virtues and vices, rights and wrongs, and world’s religions—were based on our life; Life was based on thirst, thirst on desires. They did not have their own ‘existence’; their ‘existence’ depended on desires and wishes. Keep this view, O Rose:
One person can learn nothing from virtues while another can get the quintessence of truth even from vices.
The fourth link – Positive thinking, Positive tendency
From my early life, I saw and realized that I did not take any situation, event, or temperament in the negative sense. I remained positive in whatever befell me. If there was anything negative in my environment, I took it in the positive sense, with the desire to live a positive life.
If my mother beat me, I would see if I could beat my children. I peeped into its depth, and found the answer: I would never do it.
Envy and jealously—all around—nearly suffocated me. So how could I do the same to others?
If I ever showed some negligence or some other drawback in my conduct, I would make it a lesson for myself.
If some other person committed a fault, I would learn from their mistakes. Why and how was this taking place? I do not know, but it was actually happening. I never proved successful even in the promises made to myself. For example:
At night before going to bed, I promised to rise early the next morning and be the first to do religious recital. As the morning came, I got up from the smell of sweet, fragrant tea. After having the morning tea, if someone suggested that we should go out for a walk, I would readily agree. On my return, I was attracted by play and games. Now again came the time to sleep, and then, a mysterious, secretive smile would come over my lips and put me to sleep, by covering me with the pall of carelessness! No argument, it all happened as a matter of fact.
Some classmate of mine would scold, abuse, or laugh at me and then no longer remaining on speaking terms with me.
A few days later, she would express a desire to again be on speaking terms with me. If I came to know of her desire, I would not disclose to her that I knew her mind, but under some excuse, I would go to her, inquire of her well being, and make peace with her again. Thus, I fulfilled her desire. Why?
Perhaps I could not bear to see anybody in the state of mental confusion of suffocation or helplessness.
Perhaps my own helplessness and mental suffocation enabled me to realize the confusion of others.
Perhaps it was a deep, positive mental state.
Such trifling things, pertaining to my school and home atmosphere, would direct the flow of my life in new directions. My mode of thought sought after truth, not only from the right and true things, but also out of the wrong and untrue things; it searched for virtues, not only in the virtuous, but also in the vicious temperaments as well. It was not my mode of thinking, but the mode of thinking of some other being deeply embedded within me. Perhaps this very reflectiveness came to a halt at the sight of:
Wading through water
The stream of reasoning
Decaying human physiques
This halt or pause becomes a beautiful encampment, then ‘why’ comes again and sticks a label saying:
“If you wish to see Beauty
Know your own ‘self’
Then all you need are the brakes, not speed
Not a car, but spiritual thirst”
If I peep within, I find in my life, a long list of desires
Are desires themselves Life?
Is life a conglomeration of desires?
Sometimes a trifling desire has to cover a long distance of years, to get fulfillment or a draught of satisfaction. When I think back to my desires, they were only at the mental level. They had no physical or social content. I had absolutely no desire for hearth and home, good clothes, wealth and affluence, jewelery and ornaments; I remained confined to a caravan of feelings and sentiments.
Perhaps my present start of life began at the mental level. Material goods did satisfy my physical needs, but my objects of attraction remained beauty, my own ‘self’, truth, and happiness.
I remember those moments of my wedding: People: “Bare, unadorned ears do not look nice, put on your ornaments”
People: “Apply some light lipstick to your lips”
Rose: “Why? Why should I do that?”
People: “Your lips will look beautiful then.”
Rose: “Then apply lipsticks to your own self, please.”
People: “Wear an embroidered suit.”
People: “It is a wedding, you will look more beautiful in it.”
Rose: “Is it my wedding or the suit’s wedding?”
What was I doing? What was I saying? Even I was not conscious of it. Perhaps my search was at some other level. This frankness saved me from narrow-minded and materialistic people. Whatever took place at the physical level and the social level, happened because of some inclination of mine. However, the intensity of my demands was soon going to take me to some other direction. I wished, for example:
All should form one family
All should be happy
All should enjoy freedom
All should be free from worries, anxieties, helplessness and despair.
It was possible only if, I was prepared to face depression in the attempt.
My wish expressed for others’ welfare, was in fact my wish for my own well being.
My desire to Love all was an expression of self-Love.
My desire for universal Freedom was, in fact, an expression of my own servitude of some kind.
My longing for general happiness was, in fact, pain of my own helplessness and despair.
These desires of mine brought the advent of spring—they ultimately discovered freedom, love, and happiness.
You see this expansion of my life was possible only on the axle of my desires. The destination of Life depends on the mood of the wayfarer, on the fact of which path is adopted. Perhaps the desire to remove imperfections becomes the starting point of leading a righteous and immaculate Life. An account of the fulfillment of this desire cannot be given in the language of emotions and passions.
This desire, at first, brought me failure at the external plane. Though I ask, did it really bring me failure? This failure, in fact, looks like success; for this failure is a degree of understanding Life.
My ‘why’ now opens some other pages, of my desires and wishes.
How can I become infinite and boundless in the world, when the world itself is controlled by limits?
How can I spread my wings of oneness with others, when they are all confined to the cages of their egos, or narrow selves?
How will anyone understand my feeling of human love, when everyone is engaged in meeting the demands of their selfish narrow self?
In this way, the sense of failure is depressing. However, today the weather has changed, as has my mode of thought, and profundity has come into my being.
If we cannot make the world a single house, at least we can realize our oneness with all.
For if another person’s house is not ‘mine’, I, on my part, can feel my oneness with them.
If all others are confined to the narrow cages of ‘yours’ and ‘ours’, at least I am not one of them. Then for me, they all become ‘mine’.
These considerations remove my tremor of imperfection. The feelings I cherish about others contain feelings regarding myself, and they bring me back from others to myself again. Even in this good feeling there is servitude—a limit, a remoteness, for ‘why’ is saying:
“Goodness is also a limit and by renouncing it one can flow in the easy flux of Life.”
“`O beings, Before reading these words please understand that i have not been educated in any intinstitution or organized spiritual retreat.My life journey is my knowledge of Science and Dharma.The being Who knows the principles of life and recognizes the wisdom.That particular being will never say that he/she does not believe in such. If i say today i do not believe in science than i would have to question my-self , ” Have i become Einstein”? but on the otherhand, if Einstein says, ” I do not believe in science”, then being should believe because he is learned being. If Krishna was present at this moment and says,” There is no god” , then the human being would have to pay attention. Do we know difference between trust and belief ?
O beings, I only write from the core of my being, but never about my sivlings or any other being in my life. So if my experince of my journey gives me the knowledge to say there is God then there is God; but if my experinces shows me the science is my guru then i will have to acknowledge the same. If one should queston why a human being has two eyes and one mouth, why not two mouth, “Is there explanation for this question?” If we don’t acknowledge experince of life, then there is some paralytic energy in us. Total energy is consistant of partial and full theory, but matter is partialy theory. So let us not trust anything or anyone, then should be not trust our own being? Then, why would not i trust every parts of living, when…..
= My illiteracy made me literate
=My non-charactor charaterised my being
=My foolness give a birth to my inner child
=My love made my life the guru of my-self
=And the whole creation became my God Whether we believe or not that we are from energy,not for energy, because if illiteracy can teach literacy then it can only be explained as Energy.
Then this energy can not be theorized as i expierenced it. I hope my love for humanity will take you towards the journey of finding peace.