“`I still gaze at the smile which is within the lips

= The womb of stilled and deep Silence, in which the glimpse of sound takes place
= The stilled i-ness in deep silence creates the feeling, in which I-ness disappears and the infinite sound plays the veena
= The soft breaths in silence, cuts thru bones and makes waves through in infinite
= In silence the recognition of silence, Passes thru time eminates lightened silence
This state of stillness is in stillness, is there any stillness after this particular in stillness, any other dimension, any type of life?

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Since child all these words, saint- sage- guru- wisdom-meditation- religion were inner taste of my being. My despair became sigh and cut thru my bone but with deep breaths it would bow a seed in silence, to flourish such results that my being acknowledged 26 years later.My deep thought longed for the journey but in everyday life was longing as a question in search of an answer, evolved in depression, seasons changed – years passed but seeds of my thought did not flourish. In deep death of despair desperation, I was gazing at my being and worldly affairs, then all of a sudden;
The seed began to flourish within the procedure of flourish seed. I gazed at the new-born Rose. Now this new being asked:
– Is religion only at sacred places?
= no !
– Does one can only find nectar at only sacred places?
= no!
– What is religion?
= Self-realization
Who ever becomes self realized being, that being becomes saint and sage.

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I became aware that my being became ignorant of such words. Then meditation began. My thought of 26 years were my meditation. These thoughts disappeared my anxiety-helplessness-despair-incapability and prisonment.
Then are these 26 years not comprising of ascetic?
Was this journey of self-realization, Was not Mantras?
-What was I before?
= only despair
-Then, What did I become?
= Ascetical being
-Who am I now?
=( what a question that being asks, Wow), but this being must answer.!!!—hhuuunnnnn—–!
Am I a learned being—-no!
Then, Am I not aware?—–not really
Then, Who am I ?
Just Smile!
Why?
When I gaze at my being in deep sleep all I find is smiling physique.
Now I question Rose is knowledge important or meditation needed? Then Rose inner eye gives a quite and carefree smile. Then my being asks with inkling,
“what is enlightenment?”
( wonderstruck) Rose’s being is little disturbed by this amazing question? My being does not want to portray it in speech faculty. But still answers that I do not know what Krishna-Buddha—Jesus called Enlightenment?
All I know is this that my being’s womb engulfs this all creation, although I am serene in my on environment. In my deep thrust I still gaze at the smile which is within the lips—the free style action in my eyes—music in walking—dance in sitting and standing—and food became sacred. But my being still has longing to devour the creation.
Then this does not sound like silence?
Silence is desires-thoughts-battle and ‘me and mine’-‘you and yours’. This silence gives birth to awareness, with comes the changes in human being. This total awareness gazes at the creation. This silence becomes the death of Ego. In this dimension the being becomes totally art.
In other words:
Enlightenment is to recognize the emptiness in the sphere.
Now in other words:
When I-ness becomes nothingness that nothingness is within the I-ness, this experience of be experiencer, recognizes,realizes, feels, knows and accepts is enlightenment.
When the being becomes totally aware of inner being, until the being is in its physical being, the surrounding of such being would be independent—carefree—happy. This particular being’s life would not be recognized by human’s naked eye.
– Then, after the physical death of such being will there be life?
= for sure!
– Every spec of this creation must be enlightened, when total enlightenment takes place, the life will remain as is.
– So beings, is Krishna alive this moment?
= yes!
– How?
= If any being in any shape or being has awareness and longing for Krishna, is Krishna.
– Then, who does not believe in Krishna?
= all human beings don’t believe in God.
– Who does not even know about Krishna?
= Does a being know itself?
Rose reply made the being capable of knowing bliss.
-Will the being ever take birth as Krishna?
= When the inner being experiences total awareness, in which Krishna consciousness is present; this presence will amalgamate within the awareness, the energy created in this procedure is Krishna.
– Then this state of creation is how long?
= This is infinite and boundless.
– The moral is this creation will never end?
= no !

– Then will this world end?
= yes, world is the creation, not the creator.
– Then, what is the point of Moksha?
= This is probably how an animal thinks about human beings

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Rose walked away without gazing at my being, only sound was heard.
“One should only eat as much as can be digested”
Because my inner being was still thirsty for wisdom, because this is my journey to know my capacity. Rose’s total awareness and carefree emotion filled me with total pure love.

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“`The mind is a priest, the intellect is a Guru

I was born in India, were I lived in a joint family, twenty-six members in a small house. The atmosphere was full with mutual wrangling and bickering. Though occasionally there came puffs of spring breeze, but I remained in the state of fear. I laid in the gorge of reflections and groped in the dark for a beautiful and calm ambience having an aroma of affection and the sense of kinship. However I ever remained conscious of fear from my mother’s side and cold indifference from my father.

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The misdeeds of others recoiled on my head and I never complained of it. I was punished for others misdeed despite my innocence. Physically I remained a victim of disease, and mentally fell a victim to depression. I married in 1979 and in 1980 I arrived to Canada.
Here I felt freedom however it took me two years to get rid of my mother’s fears. I was now in the atmosphere of peace and comfort. My material life remained comfortable and the company of children enjoyable; still I felt some discomfort within myself. My search took the shape of melancholy in which I was suffocated by pain and helplessness.
I had no sense of satisfaction in the day or at night, but was mentally perturbed and wept to think of what I wanted and what I liked.

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In the year of 1999, very critical type of depression overwhelmed me when the doctor said, “Rose, you have spent your whole life in the state of depression.” This remark simply stunned me. When the doctor stated that I should check into a hospital, something inside woke up, and this was my life in which I didn’t accepted the fact of my mental sickness.

I asked the doctor for six months to personally test and examine myself. I covered the windows with black curtains for I felt uneasy in light. I next balanced my head and was attacked by migraine. I felt suffocated in the presence of everyone. In six months the whole atmosphere changed. I went to my psychologist again and he couldn’t make out what I felt. But I fully understood not only myself, but even the psychologist. During the six months I so radically changed that my whole life transformed.

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I felt as though the past was a mere dream and I had wake up. What had passed was only the body, I had my spiritual awakening,

There was an uncommon difference between the day gone by and the next day. I had become simply a symbolic of wonder and surprise. Why so? Further exploration brought me closer and still closer to myself. This self exploration has brought me relief. So far besides the creation of ten books, poems and songs, various feeling and perceptions of life engulfed me. It made me inquire the nature of the world, the universe. It impelled me to think over what we were, about the difference between science, religion, and God. This self exploration familiarizes me with Jesus, Krishna,Muhammad, Buddha, Newton, Einstein, and Darwin. From the perusal of these great ones I feel that the world is a mere path, nature is our means of knowledge, universe is our temple, and God is our destination. Human besides travelers are nothing else. The mind is a priest, the intellect is our Guru, and our tendency is a provider that makes us artists and places us upon the stage of the world.

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Today I have transcended all thoughts and ratiocination, free from helplessness and suffocation and despair. There is a beautiful self emanation in me which recount the tipsy state of my freedom.

For we can understand life only when we first understand death. When life enfolds death, the individual has a festive experience with converts his into an artist. This is the real story of life, this is the art of living, that lands humans to competition.